Isaiah 60:19 - 20
" The sun will no more be your light by day,nor will the brightness of the moon shines on you,for the Lord will be your everlasting light,and the Lord will be your glory.You will never set again,and your moon will wane no more,the Lord will be your everlasting light,and your days of sorrow will end."
When I was in my mother's womb, she blessed me with this prayer and scripture in Psalm 139.
Many years passed and when I faced with difficulties and depression in life, I would rather ran away. I wanted to give up and admitted defeat. I thought it would be OK if I slipped away.
My heart grew cold. My whole life grew into emptiness. However I knew deep inside me was crying out to the Lord Jesus Christ. I knew He was calling me to return to His arms of everlasting love. I longed for Him but somehow I felt a great sense of loss in me until I dared not to return to Him.
I tried to hid myself from Him. But He amazed me because the Lord Jesus Christ did not gave up on me. When, I tried again to hid myself under the bed, a voice came in and reminded me about the scripture in Psalm 139.
I opened the bible and I began to cry which I never did before. It stated like this :
Psalm 139
"O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise,you perceive my thoughts form afar.You disern my going out and my lying down, you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.
You hem me in-behind and before,you have laid your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?If I go up to the heavens you are there, if I make my bed in the depths you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will hold me fast.
If I say,"Surely the darkness will hide me and the light becomen ight around me," even the darkness will not be dark to you,the night will shine like the day,for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my inmost being,you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praised you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful,I know that full well. My frame was not hidden form you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depth of the earth,your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts,O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them,they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake,I am still with you.
If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me you bloodthirsty men! They speak of you with evil intent,your adverseries misuse your name.Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord, and abhor those who rise up against you? I have nothing but hatred for them, I count them as my enemies.
Search me, O God,and know my heart,test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offesive way in me,and lead me in the way everlasting."
My whole life completely changed as I began to grow in His arms of everlasting love. Jesus Christ called me and I love Him. I dedicated my life to Him until today.
Prayer for today
" Dear Lord, I know You have amazing plans for me. Please give me that hope for myself. Help me to learn who I am and present myself to You and others with no fear of rejection. Amen."
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